Lost focus...

It was a bolt out of the blue when I decided to be a filmmaker. And since that moment, I've learned and grown in ways that I didn't expect. I took lessons from every situation I've ever been in and stored them away, in the possibility that I'll need them later on.

I've heard stories about Hollywood, and read even more about how, in many ways, the hardest part of the industry, is the interpersonal relationships and encounters, with vets and new-comers alike. And not ever being one to be unaware and unprepared, I'm going to do whatever I can, and whatever it takes to succeed at this career I've chosen.

That said, it brings me to the current state of things. When I started this I did it because I didn't want to wait for my "big break", I decided to make it myself. Well a few auditions later, and the selection of some really talented NYC actors later, I had my cast, I had my srcipts, and I was ready to roll. Then it happened.

Stagnation. Scheduling issues, my day job needing more of my attention than before, and there I was, no forward movement, no progress, and not one second of film shot. And then, the holidays rolled around. Needless to say things were moving at a pace that could only be described as glacial.

So it's 01/05/09, and I sit at my computer, becoming drunk on writing again and shifting all my attention to being THE director. I love this choice I've made, I love the possibility of seeing my words and imagery on screen, delighting my audience, and most importantly, making my mother smile, and my father proud. Helping my family and giving my life the purpose, it for so long, did not have.

So, stagnation is a blessing, it gives you the time to reflect on choices made, and gives you insight into choices yet to be made. So, my apologies to Tom Petty, but waiting isn't the hardest part, not if you use it to the best of your advantage. Which I am.

Time to get to work!